After two years of trying, and failing, and trying, and failing, and trying, and failing… we’ve finally stumbled on success. I’m 12 weeks pregnant, and I’m due on January 11, 2013. We are vacillating between stoked, thrilled, scared, cautious… the standard slate of emotions. Ack ack ack… we get to have a kid! (Hopefully!)
While it took us longer than we wanted, our struggle hasn’t been nearly as struggle-y as others with infertility often face. Since our problem remained unexplained, we had very little to work with, but eventually we got there, so now that seems to be behind us. For the curious/interested: I had my polypectomy, and nada, we tried some rounds of Femara, that didn’t do anything, then I had an HSG, next cycle had bupkis, then we were scheduled to do IUI. In preparation for the IUI, I was back on Femara, this time at double the dose. A business trip and a weekend lined up inconveniently with my ovulation, and we couldn’t do IUI that cycle — but it turned out that the old fashioned way (combined with the recent HSG & Femara & reduced stress with a lightened client load?) finally worked for us that cycle.
Symptom-wise, I’ve *almost* gotten off easy. I haven’t puked (knock wood), only have mild and manageable nausea. I’ve been able to eat (boy, have I been able to eat), and I’ve mostly been sleeping fine. Symptoms that have been present, but really only annoying: frequent urination, constipation, bloat, BLOAT, gassiness, mild headaches, occasional pinchy growing cramps, dizziness, shortness of breath. The hard one, the one that has me knocked for a loop, is fatigue. “Fatigue” sounds so gentle, soft and mild, and it’s not. It’s basically been 3 a.m. for me for two months straight now. Worst of all: it’s left me unable to program. I simply need more brainpower than I have right now to do my groovy Making Stuff In the Computer thing. That has me terribly sad, and frightened… I have lots of work to do, and I really, really want to be getting it done NOW. Fingers crossed that I get my mojo back in the next few weeks.
Okay, enough of the bummer stuff… most importantly, baby-wise, everything seems to be cooking perfectly. Haven’t had any scares, not even any spotting, and the baby has been looking great, measuring on track and all that good stuff. The scan at top was done a week ago. The little thing sure was wiggly and active. We couldn’t get a good picture, but seeing it live, it looked fantastic and really healthy… the doctor said it’s as good as she’s seen. My Mom came down from Oregon for the scan, I’m so glad she got to be there and see it in person (this is her first grandkid). We don’t know the sex yet, but probably will in a month or two, almost certainly by mid-August.
Rich has been awesome and supportive and wonderful, but you know that. Every day, I feel awfully glad to have him as the father of my kid. This is going to rock.